Home Sickness is something I have never had before and I hadn’t given it a thought when I considered moving to Turkey. When ever I have spent time away from home I have always had the knowledge that I would return soon, there is no point in travelling if you constantly pine for home.
Leaving my home to move to Turkey was probably one of the most conflicting times of emotion for me. In one hand I desperately wanted to be with my Husband and I was looking forward to starting my life in Turkey, setting up our home and also having my own home.
On the other side of the coin, I didn’t want to leave behind those I loved my parents and my animals, what was familiar to me and the security that home gave me. I was also extremely nervous about the future and being a house wife and living in another country.
The week before I left had to be the hardest of my life so far with all these emotions bubbling around inside me. Eating was not the best thing and my insides were churning for days. Then a point hit me while I was on the plane and I realised I was on my way and my body and emotions started to relax slightly at the thought of the adventure about to start. On seeing my Husband all the issues and anxieties I had, had left me and I found some peace again.
The weeks following where full of things to organise and do leaving little thinking time and down time to allow the mind to wander.
I think this is something everyone feels at times when they are living away from home and that is Home Sickness. There are days when a cuddle from my dog or just to play with my cat is a longing or just to sit and watch endless cooking programs with my Mum or bend my Dads ear for a few hours is something you miss and long for.
For my Husband it is hard for him he realises I am missing my family and pets, he feels that it means that I would rather be there than here, that I am maybe not happy here. But that is the wrong assumption because to leave here would be just as hard. Also now we are finally together for good after many years and that where ever he is or I am we will always be together be it in Turkey, Scotland or any where else in the world.
To be able to have everyone one I love in one place is a dream for the moment but I hope that one day, I will be able to have my family, all of them together in one country at least.
They say home is where you heart is, I wonder if that person thought about when home is more than one place.
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